The Secret

There were days when I felt so down and life seems to be so dark. So I went out to my mama’s garden in the morning the get some sun. Morning sun is very effective to keep me warm, healthy, and also to help me have sunny mood for the day.

Book has always been a good companion while sitting in the garden and enjoying the morning sun. I read The Secret by Rhonda Byrne. It felt like having the morning sun in the sky and on my hand as well. The sensation was like having double sensation of warmness, happiness, as well as motivation and knowledge.

The one who gave me The Secret is Atin. She is indeed a bright young woman. But she is not confident in her brightness yet she never gives up discovering her light. I hope her journey to Australia will help her vanish her gloominess. I would love to see her more cheerful and can’t wait to feel her shinning radiation when she returns back in 2011.

I read this chapter when I was still jobless and had no money at all in my pocket. It was just so motivating reading this line of “whatever the mind can think… it can be achieved.” It somehow supported me that I am able to do big exploration and surely I can achieve it.

I have some funny yet incredible ‘Secret’ stories about money. When I was studying in the university, I did not have a job. There was a time when my budget of the month already finished before the end of the month. I did not have any money at all, just some changes in my purse. Somehow I was so relax and believed that I could handle it without looking out for credits nor borrowing from friends nor even calling my parents (that was the last last thing I would do). Not long, somebody knocked my door, “ellie, would you be so kind as to translate this work for me please, how much you charge for a page?”. Finally, that was how I got survived that month. After one translation job, there came some others. I was amazed on how thing works out by just believing that everything will work out fine.

“Being thankful everyday is one of the key to attract richness.”

“And whatever you ask for in prayers and by believing, you will receive it.”

There are days when I wake up in the middle of the night, when everything is so silent and sleeping, when the night is cold you don’t want to slip out of your blanket. I pray. I don’t ask for such a selfish request to God, I only ask for the best, the best for me, the best for my beloved one, the best for my mama and father, the best for my sister and friends. I believe that everything I have in life is the best gift from the Soul of the Universe. By praying I never get afraid of the darkness, and I confidently keep shinning and flying.

MY LIFE IS A HARMONY

How do you know when the calling of your life is there?

The whole life you have been going through so far seems like a universe which all the little things that were so not logic, strange, coincidences, all the steps you made and all the moves that forced you going on, all the bad and good things happened to you all are united.

The living and the dying and the living and the dying and the up and down and up and down finally brings you to live. Live for you, for your beloved ones, for the people, for your ancestors and also for your descendents, and all those lives are all connected.

Everything of your life is now connected with this red string and things become logic with full of energy and feeling and all reasons that only when your heart and mind are together you then can see it.

I am nothing but only a tiny part of this universe, no bigger than a dust flying in the air. But my own life is a big universe with so many lives plays the roles.

I’m afraid to soon to say that my eyes are opening wide and see the whole idea of my life which is created by a great Creator, for a special purpose.

I’m afraid to say that now I’m ready to take up that special purpose. But I see this in my head and my heart, it is in balance.

If this is true, I’m already so happy. If it is not true, let it be a vision that strengthens my heart today. It is okay.

My life is in harmony, now I see.

How about yours?

MEETING PEOPLE in DREAM and REALITY

I ever dreamt of meeting George W. Bush, very close and somehow talking with him. Hmm... Thanks to me I didn’t throw any shoes at him.

Once, I dreamt I was on the top of the highest mountain and I could see the view of sky. It was a bright early morning day, misty, and cold. The peak was flat and I saw the east was so covered by white mist and so bright. From the peak I could see the sky and there were many planes flying by, the surveillance plane looked so big and many lights on the under part of the plane, I also saw UFO plane and there was a couple coming out from it. I also thought or told to see a high mountain, but I did not, it was already the highest peak, only some high grounds, blue and misty, but the peak I was standing was flat.

I have a collection of dream meeting with Presidents, I’ve met Soharto several times, I helped him walking, I had handshakes, I talked, he gave me smiles, Habibie – I don’t remember, Gus Dur – I got handshakes, Megawati – I don’t remember, SBY – this was when I was in Germany, SBY was the driver of my car, and now George W. Bush. I’ve met one Prince in my dream; that is William, for several times he was appeared as someone who was close and loved me, I got a kiss on the cheek from him.

I also have a collection of dream about mountain too; I’ve been several times on the top of the mountain, ever been flying above a mountain with a magic carpet, ever several times could not reached up the mountain, ever successful reached the peak, ever several times falling from the mountain, ever so many times seeing high mountain, ever once saw volcanic mountains erupting and was running away to safe my life from it, and ever once climbed up the mountain riding a black horse guided by the ambassador and when I finally reached the peak I found ravine. Now I think I also ever dreamt of hugging a mountain.

In real life, I’ve met quite numbers of important people of this country. I’ve met many ministers of Habibie’s government; I remember meeting the controversial Andi Ghalib, Theo L Sambuaga, and some other ministers I don’t remember anymore, I’ve met Tuty Alawiyah as Minister of Women Affairs, and I’ve met Habibie himself. I’ve met several foreign ambassadors; I was congratulated by the Papua New Guinea Ambassador on my first and successful bilingual ceremony; I made the Australian Ambassador got lost in one of his business visit in East Kalimantan; and I met South Korea and Japan Ambassadors, Malaysia’s Diplomats, and I accompanied the Austrian Ambassador and got quite close with him for a year. I met the Kapolri of Megawati’s government – Bimantoro, and talked with him as the interpreter for the Austrian Ambassador. Here I also met IT expert Roy Suryo. I also met kind of celebrity as well…I got a handshake from Titik Puspa and my most unforgettable handshake was with Andi Malaranggeng – his hand was as soft as a young-girl-never-work hand.

But what made me tremendously happy is, of course, meeting my beautiful friends.

So, how about you? Have you met somebody?

THE ART OF LOSING

“It is just like when you lost your beloved cell phone,

You will get the brand new one anyway”

I remember when we got this flood because of the heavy rain season and broken reservoir. The flood lasted for three days. When the water went down again, it swept away trashes. And as the flood left us its mud, we had to work hard to clean every corner of the house. We found our ‘treasures’ - all things that in fact we did not use anymore and had been short of a collection of waste. Perhaps, it can be seen as a ‘natural disaster’ as the flood cost people dirt, death and lost. But it can also be seen as ‘natural cleansing’ as the flood cost us hard work to clean the house and so ourselves. To ourselves in a way that we ‘cleaned’ our mind from carelessness and force us to think how to prevent the disaster to be happen in the future, how to keep our environment clean and safe as well as to maintain it. Moreover, it is on how to keep our heart clean from disappointment or anger of the lost.

The earthquake also does short of the same thing. Thousands lost their homes and families. At the very first moment, one can only see chaos and ruins. But moments after, new houses are built again much stronger, people become more aware and sensible, and as the new life begins, the new spirit and hopes are just like the morning sunlight the brings confidence and energy. The disaster ties our sensibility, sharing, supports, cooperation, love; all combine and form this new brotherhood and humanity. Knowledge goes hand in hand with belief.

For me personally, the lost is the beginning of something new and better. But this certainly requires our patience and our faith. Prejudice will only prevent us to see beyond and stop us to go on.